I have had weird thoughts of wanting to kill my three children. Lately, I have lost sleep trying to meticulously plan how the plan can be executed. I do not want to harm them but eliminate them because I would do not want to watch them to through pain. I wake up feeling very bad that I can have such thoughts. I was happy when I got these children and I have had great hopes of what they will become in future. What’s wrong with me, please help me.